I never thought I would be in this position. I thought I would be married and be in my mid-twenties before I got pregnant. I thought I would have a degree or a certificate of some sort, but that is not the case. I am 18, unmarried and jobless with a baby on the way.I am living across the country from all my family. I am in a position where I feel helpless and alone. I feel as though nobody understands. Yes, I am the one who moved. I found it extremely important for Chris and I to be together when our baby is born. I admit it is very stressful. I wish I had a job because that would cut down the stress, but I just can't seem to find one. I don't get to do all the things that 18 year olds are doing. I have to grow up and be an adult. I am the one who got myself into this position, but I still miss just having fun and not having to worry about every thing I do. Will it harm the baby? Is what I am eating safe? etc. I cannot wait to meet my little girl, but at the same time I am not ready. I want Chris to be able to feel the closeness I already have with her. I want to be able to give my little girl a great life. I want to give her more than just what she needs, but far above that. I have always wanted kids young, but not this young. I know I will be a good mother and Chris will be a great father. I wish I would have decided not to have sex. I wish I wasn't about to have a baby because my life is nowhere near where I hoped it would have been by now. I hope to get my cosmetology license after the baby is born, but I will have to find someone to watch my daughter and find a school, which all are about 30-45 minutes away. It is going to be tough. I just hope I stick to my plans and do it.
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